Attention please: You don't have to take every word I say here seriously, but I have to say that I'm writing this post after getting disappointed by someone I've considered a half-friend (so eventually I wasn't really disappointed).
I wonder if Earth doesn't feel like it belongs to the Milky Way because aside from the stupid lifeless planets aimlessly orbiting around the sun, there isn't any planet that seems to resemble earth to an extent where she (Earth) can believe that she is not alone. I feel like Earth.
I hate to say this but so many times I feel like I don't belong any where. I feel like this probably because I still don't have anyone who is fine with everything about me, the way I feel, the way I think (and the way I look? Nazis hate me for sure!)
If that's the case then it is just a matter of time; when I find someone I can talk to like a true friend, I will start feeling that I belong to Oman, or specifically Dhofar. However, it seems like it is a matter of luck as well. My life may come to an end before meeting that one person I really need to meet.
OMG, am I being too honest here?
What I feel is that I don't fit in my society because of my perspectives on life and my way of thinking in general. There is a big difference... a really big difference, but I choose to oppress my own identity and personal opinions in order to live in peace. In other words, my standards and principles seem to be completely different from the norms where I live. Apparently I am not an Alien, but y'know, my priorities differ from theirs. My views on key matters are different. *hearing an inner voice teasing me and telling me to be honest and just spit it out* I can give examples but I don't want to be too harsh on the place where I was born and raised. I'm sure you can detect some examples in the coming posts.
Anyway, so I don't feel like I belong here, but at the same time, I'm afraid that if I moved to a place that will give me the chance to be more like myself, I wouldn't be liked. I would be discriminated and oppressed for other reasons. I doubt Nazis would like me :'(
I have to say that I'm having a really hard time right here and right now. Not only does the whole situation not sound right, there are some people inside my life who are just too annoying (cruel, hypocritical, inconsiderate, unkind, etc). Some of them are 'malicious'! That word isn't too much for them. I simply hate the whole situation I'm in for simply so many things.
Even if Nazis and the other racial supremacists liked me, I wonder if I would make friends and love the place. I'm saying that I'm aware that the problem could be in me, not in the time and place.
I doubt that though ;p